I wish you knew..

Friday, 2 October 2009

This post says it all......




NOBODY KNOWS
By: The Tony Rich Project

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
You'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me


p/s: i miss you a lot

For the few who knew....and request c nad8 (cos she likes dark-sad stuff :p).

Sunday, 28 June 2009

I found a nice song, sweet betrayal by Hollow, while was surfing the net [kes boring kali ah~]. I liked it because ia acoustic kali. Little did know that I am easily affected by music. Music defines my mood, emo songs makes me emo, energetic songs feels me with energy...catulah kirakan. Enjoy :) and jangan sedih sal mendangar lagu ani...wawawawawa



Hollow - Sweet Betrayal (acoustic)

when i was broken
you picked up the pieces
and made me whole again

when i was wasted
you gave me life somehow
and took away the pain

(Cho)

Now the precious moments are all
tarnished by your lies
nothing you could say to me
would ever justify
stranded out at sea so full of
grief and misery
surrounded by the waters of your
heartless treachery

(v2)

your tears mean nothing
you empty words of blasphemy
and you deserve to pay
and now its over
the love i had for you has died
there is nothing left to say

(Cho)

(Solo)

(Outro cho)

now the precious moments are all
tarnished by your lies
i see the broken pieces of my
life go passing by
stranded out at sea so full of
grief and misery
surrounded by the waters of your
heartless treachery


p/s: tiada kene mengene dgn yg hidup atau pun yg mati.... ('',)v

How should I know?

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

hmmm...

I am recieving different vibes..

God, help me....

What should I do...?

For I am weak...

Point me to the right direction....

Please....

Here I beg you....

Please....

watching your back

Monday, 22 June 2009

Something to share. :)

-#-


You were walking by my side
That brightens up my day
Then, u walk in front of me
It makes me wonder
And wonder if
IT is real, or
Just a mere imagination.
Again, I only walk
Behind you
And only see your back
Tried to catch up, but
Feels like I’ve been left,
Left far behind
And cannot reach you
I’m locked out,
And can’t get in,
That makes me wonder
A lot more..
Can’t really think,
Can’t really sleep,
Can’t really eat,
Can’t really do anything...,
Maybe, what im feeling
Is just a feeling of
‘’Insecurity’’
Always thinking that
“im not good enough”
“what am I missing?”
I hear a whisper calling your name
Probably its my heart,
Calling for you..
Craves for your attention..
I can’t do anything else,
Only, wait and hope,
Hope that you will sense my presence
And wait for that time to come
It may take years
But, I hope that I can take the pain,
Pain of being un-noticed..

-composed by peko-

p/s: how I wish you knew

Early Air to Air combat

Sunday, 24 May 2009

Stumbled upon a nice piece of article telling the birth of fighter planes, the technologies incorporated and the brave stories of the fighter pilots. Enjoy people!

(clip taken from BBC website: http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/A898761 )

Early Air-to-Air combat

The first aeroplanes were not built for war. The Wright brothers made their first powered flight late in 1903, but by 1909 the technology had advanced sufficiently for the Frenchman Louis Blériot to fly some 22 miles across the English Channel. This won him the £1000 promised by the London Daily Mail for doing so. He nearly didn't make it.

History

The British Army had already conquered the air, however. From 1880 they were using balloons to locate and target enemy troops for artillery, as the Prussians had done in the siege of Paris in 1871. This service was delivered by the Balloon Section, Royal Engineers (RE).

In 1911 the Air Battalion, RE, had two Companies. No 1 had airships, balloons and kites, while No 2 had aircraft. The Royal Flying Corps (RFC) was founded in 1912 from these two Companies. Just before the outbreak of war the Royal Naval Air Service (RNAS) took over the airships, leaving the RFC with the aircraft. The RNAS also formed aircraft squadrons in September 1914.

The Technology

The aircraft of 1914 were not intended as fighters. The job for some, unlike their balloon predecessors, was to 'scout' for the enemy, a job traditionally given in the past to the cavalry. Aircraft were not limited by difficulties of terrain, and had a superior vantage point. At this stage they complemented the role of the cavalry. Most British single-seater aeroplanes were called scouts for most of the First World War. Once the target was located, two-seater aircraft maintained the contact, with the passenger or observer passing firing correction instructions back to the artillery, superseding but not replacing the balloon. They were ideal for a campaign of manoeuvre.

The problem with most of these aircraft was that they were under-powered and under-developed, which meant that they had problems lifting any sort of weight or payload - including the pilot! Their rate of climb was lamentable, and their loiter time (the length of time an aircraft can stay in an operational area once airborne) limited. The two-seaters in particular were designed for stability, to allow ground observation. The standard RFC aircraft in 1914, the BE 2, was so stable that it could not be manoeuvred quickly at all, and later proved to be the airborne equivalent of a 'sitting duck'.

At the outbreak of the First World War, strengths were as follows:

  • France had 132 front-line aircraft and 15 non-rigid airships

  • Germany had 246 aircraft and five Zeppelin airships

  • The RFC had 84 aircraft

  • The RNAS had 71 aircraft and seven airships

The other major forces - Russia and Austria - were poorly equipped at this time.
  • The Russians had some 24 aircraft and 12 airships

  • The Austrians had 36 aircraft and one airship

In the first few weeks of World War I there was still no desire to fight in the air. Opponents waved chivalrously at each other in passing. Just being airborne was dangerous enough - but it would soon become more so.

The Shooting Starts

It may have started with a shaking of fists, but soon opposing airmen started to devise ways of limiting the enemy's activities. Due to weight restrictions only pistols, rifles and shotguns were used initially, with little effect, although there were stories about airmen (RJF Barton of the RFC and Felix Brocord of the French Air Service) shooting down German aircraft with pistols. Other offensive projectiles at this time included bricks, flechettes (heavy steel darts), hand grenades, and grappling hooks.

Since there was no way of preventing your machine gun or any other weapon from shooting your propeller off, tractor aircraft (propeller in front) could fire only to the side and behind. Pusher aircraft (propeller behind) could fire forward, but not to the rear. Early machine guns were too heavy to be carried in the smaller aircraft, so it was left to the large, lumbering, pusher planes to carry the heavy machine guns.

  • On 22 August, 1914, Lt Louis A Strange and his observer, Lt L Penn-Gaskell, with an infantry type Lewis gun mounted in a Henri Farman pusher, chased a German reconnaissance aircraft but could not come within range. The order was given for the gun to be removed.

  • On the same day, German rifle fire brought down an Avro 504 on patrol over Belgium, which made it the first RFC aeroplane to be destroyed by the enemy.

  • As if in reply, a German two-seater aircraft was forced down on 25 August after a confrontation with three unarmed aircraft of No 2 Squadron RFC. This was the first German casualty.

  • On the Eastern Front in August 1914, Staff-Captain Pyotr Nesterov of the Imperial Russian Air Service was the first military pilot in the world to ram a hostile reconnaissance plane.

A Deadlier Game

On 5 October, 1914, the first aeroplane in the world to be shot down from another aeroplane was a German two-seater Aviatik, piloted by Feldwebel Wilhelm Schlichting, with Lieutnant Fritz von Zangen as his observer.

It was brought down over Rheims, France. Sergeant Joseph Frantz (pilot) and Caporal Louis Quénault (observer) of the French Air Service were returning from a mission in a Voisin Type 3 (pusher), when they spotted and fired on the German aircraft. Quénault's Hotchkiss machine gun fired about 48 rounds (two clips) before the gun jammed. At this point von Zangen, the German observer, fired at them with his rifle. Quénault returned fire with his carbine, hitting the pilot. The plane, out of control, crashed to the earth and was destroyed.

This was witnessed by French troops on the ground, and thus became the first confirmed air-to-air combat victory.

Crew Conditions

Before continuing, it is as well to describe the crew conditions and equipment. By the end of 1914 most two-seaters carried a machine gun for rearward defence. The Allies usually carried a Lewis gun, and the Germans a Parabellum (a lighter redesign of the Maxim).

The normal safety harness was a simple leather lap strap, which the observer had to undo if he was to man the machine gun. There are many tales of aircraft rolling over and the observer being seen to fall to his death from the rear cockpit (or front, in the case of the BE 2).

There were no parachutes issued to aircrew: they were reserved for the crews of the observation balloons, which began to be used as the front became more static. Many aircrew refused them as they were seen to be 'unmanly', but it was mainly the weight of the early parachutes that prevented their widespread use.

To shoot at an aircraft would almost certainly result in the death of the crew from gunfire or crashing. The chivalry wasn't exactly dead, but it certainly became difficult to see. By the spring of 1915 the air war had grown more deadly.

The scout aircraft were the most vulnerable as, with only one crew member, the pilot not only had to fly the aircraft, he had to fire the weaponry as well. Since this could not be fired forward, it had to be fired around the propeller arc. Difficult? That may be, but there were those who did achieve notable success.

On the 25 July, 1915, Major Lanoe G Hawker of 6 Squadron RFC was flying a Bristol Scout C biplane, armed only with a bolt-action rifle. This was a Short Magazine Lee Enfield (SMLE), the standard infantry rifle, mounted beside the cockpit at an angle to fire clear of the propeller arc. He attacked three enemy two-seater scouts in three separate actions during a single sortie. For this action he was awarded the Victoria Cross (the highest and most prestigious British award for bravery in battle) on 24 August.

For most conspicuous bravery and very great ability on 25 July 1915. When flying alone he attacked three enemy aeroplanes in succession. The first managed eventually to escape, the second was driven to the ground damaged, and the third, which he attacked at the height of about 10,000 feet, was driven to earth in our lines, the pilot and observer being killed. The personal bravery shown by this officer was of the very highest order, as the enemy's aircraft were armed with machine guns and all carried a passenger as well as a pilot.
- London Gazette
, 24 August, 1915.

Technology Advances

The first forward-firing machine gun in a tractor aircraft was fitted to a Moraine Saulnier Scout of the French Air Service, flown by Roland Garros. To avoid the obvious problem with bullets and propeller blades he had steel wedges fitted, which deflected the bullets. This gave him a tremendous advantage over the opposition, who had thought they would be safe if a scout came directly at them.

After shooting down five enemy aircraft, he was forced down due to damage caused by ground fire. The Germans captured him and found the technology on his aircraft. The secret was out.

Anthony Fokker, an enterprising Hollander who built aircraft for the German Air service (the Netherlands were neutral), inspected it, but decided he could do better. He used cams, in line with the propeller blades, on the crankshaft of the engine. These operated a linkage with the machine gun's firing mechanism and stopped it firing as the blade passed in front of the barrel. This is termed 'interrupter gear'.

To avoid weight problems, he used a lightweight version of the Maxim MG07, the MG07/15, which had an air-cooled (not water-cooled) barrel. This became the standard German fighter gun of the First World War. He built this into a nimble monoplane, the E1 (E for Eindecker, monoplane) and offered it to the German Army. It was eagerly adopted.

At first it was used as protection for spotters, but in the hands of pilots such as Ernst Boelcke and Max Immelmann1, who patrolled the skies looking for spotters to shoot down, it was a killer.

So began the 'Fokker Scourge' of the Autumn of 1915, when Allied aircraft dropped from the sky with monotonous regularity. The BE 2, with the defensive armament in the front, firing backwards under the top wing, was, as mentioned earlier, an easy target – 'Fokker Fodder', as it became known. The Fokker E1 can be considered the first fighter aircraft.

The End of the Beginning

After using agile pusher aircraft such as the Airco DH2 with forward-firing guns, the Allies used another version of interrupter gear like that used by Fokker, and almost universally used the air-cooled version of the British Army's Vickers machine gun. As engines grew more powerful and aerodynamics more refined, heavier armament could be carried, usually two MGs with more ammunition.

Aircraft also became more agile, presenting a more difficult target. So began the 'dog fight' - aircraft turning, rolling, looping and stalling to shake off an attacker, and the attacking aircraft following these manoeuvres to gain a good shooting position. Thus also began the long run of the fighter aircraft and 'Aces' – fighter pilots who shot down others. Most did not survive the war, and many that did laid the foundations for a repeat performance in more modern machines from the Spanish Civil War to the Pacific Ocean (1936 to 1945).


1 The Immelmann turn, a half loop followed by a half roll, was not Immelmann's tactic. He preferred a steep climb with a flat 'rudder' turn of 180°. Some think it was an Allied manoeuvre to avoid Immelmann!

Monday, 18 May 2009

LUFBRU SUMMER GAMES 2009

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Assalamualaikum and hello fellow students!!

We are pleased to announce that the Loughborough Students' Union Brunei Society (LufBru) will be organising its third LufBru Summer Games in Brunei again this year!!

One of the highly anticipated games amongst Bruneian Students currently studying in the UK, the LufBru Summer Games aims to foster close relationships between students as well as to develop the spirit of sportsmanship.

Details of the Summer Games are as follow:

Date : 14th, 15th & 16th August 2009

Venue : To be confirmed

Sports to be contested are NETBALL, FOOTBALL, BADMINTON & MEN'S BASKETBALL

The LSG website will be up and running soon. Just keep on checking our website. The registration will commence on the following week, i.e. 25th May 2009.

Any updates will be posted up on the following websites:
LufBru website : http://www.lufbra.net/society/brunei/
LSG 09 link: http://www.lufbra.net/society/brunei/lsg09/

Slots are limited and teams are enlisted on first come, first serve basis. Winners will be given cash prizes along with trophies/medals!

So what are you waiting for? Get your team and yourselves ready and wait for the registration to open =D

If you have any questions, please e-mail us at lufbru@gmail.com

A clip from Brudirect..

Friday, 15 May 2009

Assalamualaikum and Hello Readers. There's something that i'd like to share with you lot regarding an Old woman back home.. For those of you in Brunei, I've take a piece from Brudirect itslef.

http://www.brudirect.com/DailyInfo/News/hyspickoftheday/May09/14/hys01.htm

Please Help This Old Woman In Kg Junjungan
By Buah Tampoi

Our daily lives are becoming more hectic. So we sometimes forget about others around us. I am writing out of sadness and pity towards this helpless old woman. She was once married, but she had no children. Her husband passed away, so nobody is there for her. She lives by way of her old pension which is actually not enough.

There are occasional relatives coming over to see her. But not so often – she told us. On Monday, we saw her walking alone and then we took her and send her to her house. We called her ‘Nene’. Her house is on the left side of the junction, not far from the main road. When I saw her house, ‘Oh Allah’ I felt so sad, even the chicken coupe is better than this one, I thought.

The house has no wall – and the dining area is also the living room. I was shocked to see such an old woman being abandoned just like that, without no one caring for her. If you guys don’t believe it, you can drive up and see two wooden houses next to a white bungalow, just on the left before a junction to Lumapas.

She told us she needs assistance to fix her sorry house. But the Ketua Kampong told her she is holding a red IC (Permanent Resident) so it is quite impossible. He even told her that it is hard to help her because nobody knows where she came from! Subhanallah is that a good reason for not helping the poor old woman?!

But think about it, how can she get a pension if she’s not recognized legally? Then, of course she deserves help, even though whoever in such a state – it is our obligation to help.

The Nene told us that once she went to the hospital. When she came back, someone has been to her house and put water into her rice and sugar. How cruel can a human be!

So please to the relevant authority, do help this poor woman.

I hope what I have written will be taken notice of and someone will do whatever is needed!